I am currently in what I lovingly call, "Test Result Purgatory." During the month of April I had many different tests ran and done, and right now I am patiently waiting to get all of the results, mark things on or off my list, then make sense of it all with my Doctor and formulate a plan.
Outside of the skin irritation it all went smoothly and I managed to actually record quite a lot of heart events. It monitored me 24/7 and could pick up an event on its own (say, during sleep), but I also sent over events myself if I felt my heart was being particularly strange; fast, slow, skipping beats, etc.
In terms of symptoms being scary, I think I place heart symptoms right at the top (tied with neurological episodes). The sensations can be down right terrifying & although they're never necessarily painful they are very uncomfortable. Lyme disease & co-infections can cause a variety of symptoms, and some of them are just "sensations," as in, they aren't directly dangerous like a heart blockage or valve issue, but it can still strain the heart so the goal is to minimize it as much as possible. One strange feeling that I used to get constantly (now much less) is air hunger. It's a sensation of not getting enough air & almost paralyzing, like something is sitting on your chest, but in truth the lungs get enough air. It's just a sensation. I could go on for days discussing all these random sensations, but basically it is my hope that all the strange stuff happening with my heart will come back as something benign but still helpable (that's not really a word, but you get it...). Basically I hope there can be a solution or answer for the issues at hand, so if things flare up again I can calm it down in some way.
So for now I am just keeping my fingers and toes crossed for the test results to come, and essentially I'm just trying to have peace with whatever they say. It's worrisome to feel 'stuck' or uncertain about the future. I've been in this rut lately where things feel very consuming & bigger than me. It is during these times especially that I need a reminder that my life in this moment is part of a bigger plan...
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope & a future." - Jeremiah 29:11