Lady of Lyme
  • Blog
  • Shop
  • About
  • Products I Love
    • Supplements & Meds
    • Makeup & Skincare
    • Food & Diet
    • Apps & Organization
    • Gift Guides
  • Resources
    • Symptoms/Resources
    • Lyme Vocabulary
    • Printables
    • Books & Reading
  • Features
  • Testing
  • Contact
  • Treatment Info
    • DesBio Treatment Facts
    • My Treatments
    • Treatment Blog

Chasing The Life I Once Knew

2/15/2013

0 Comments

 
Sometimes I catch myself in moments where I miss the life I think I would be living right now if I weren't sick. A life that is stationed in Los Angeles. I always dreamed of moving back to LA when I was a girl. I was born in Pasadena, moved away when I was young, but my aunt & grandmother lived there so we visited often. To me, Los Angeles was this beautiful escape full of blue skies, palm trees, & endless opportunity. I felt a sense of comfort & happiness when I was there. I always knew I ultimately wanted to be there.

After I graduated college I got to live this fantasy by moving out to LA and going to my dream school to study what I loved. It was everything I ever wanted... Except my health took a turn for the worse. This time that should have been filled with joy was clouded by so much pain & sleepless nights.

Eventually I moved back to Kentucky to get control of my health. And I thank god every day that I did that & I'm here with my diagnosis on the road to recovery. I don't regret moving home, but I miss the life I left behind.

I'm a huge Lakers fan, so when I see the Staples Center on TV it gives me chills. I see an aerial view of the city I love so much & it hurts my heart. Nothing comes close to the feeling of driving down the 110 with my windows down, sipping a jamba juice & passing by rows and rows of palm trees.. The smell of the beach & the sounds of the ocean.

When I got sick in Los Angeles it robbed me of a lot. This place I loved felt like a hell on earth because I was so miserable. My health was falling apart & I was extremely unhappy and scared. I missed my family, I missed the comfort of home, and I started to resent being in California. By the time I moved back I said "I am NEVER going back." But truth be told, once I took away my pain and bitterness I found underneath it all that I still loved Los Angeles. Sure the people can be crabby & the southern hospitality is nowhere in site, but to me it's still an oasis. It symbolizes the life I wanted to have, the job in fashion I was destined to have.

For now I pray about this often & it gives me peace. When I start to mourn my old life I realize God has a plan and it's not "my" life to begin with. He has a plan for me, and it might not directly match up with what I imagine but I know that it's something great. I remind myself that California is out of reach for now, but it's my motivation for the future.

What I mean to say here is that we all at some point mourn a life that we think we should have had. Whether it's a bad divorce that took years of your life away, a disaster like the hurricane up north, an accident, an illness, etc. We all have a moment in life where things don't go as planned & we hang our heads in defeat thinking about all we missed had it not happened. But I became a firm believer that after the storm comes the rainbow. Everyone encounters a tough time in life... Everyone. It comes in different forms & differs person to person. But when the smoke clears & the disaster has passed I think life will find you versus you chasing it.

Que Sera, Sera
Whatever will be, will be

And for now, I am perfectly at peace with that.

Xoxo,
Christina

0 Comments

Adventure with C. Difficile

2/13/2013

1 Comment

 
Quick update. Last Friday after a week of stomach pain we had a test ran which showed me positive for C. Difficile. If you've ever had this you know the misery of what comes with it.

If you have never had C. Diff or heard of it then a simple google search would give you all the answers about this tough intestinal infection! I've been avoiding reading google because the Internet makes me panic more then ever offer any help...sooo to stop me from having anxiety I steered clear.

These 3 weeks have been really long & drawn out, I feel super disconnected from this blog :( ... But I barely have the energy to even post this. Thought I would give you all a quick update. When I recover I shall be back.

Hope you all are doing great!

Xoxo
Christina

1 Comment

Still sick... A mini update

2/6/2013

0 Comments

 
Well I am still struggling... I have had little energy to do much of anything. My upper respiratory issue is improved but I am having horrible stomach problems. At this point we are thinking it's either part of the virus I had or a separate virus all together. But these last 2 weeks have felt like what I imagine moments in hell to be like! Since Saturday the stomach pains I have had are astronomical. I'm no stranger to a finicky stomach, but this is a whole other beast. I'm hoping if it's viral that it passes sooner rather than later.

The worst part about having anything viral like this effects my stomach is that I can't eat. I don't have an appetite & most everything just upsets it more. So it's just bland toast which is giving me right now about 300 calories a day. Not ideal for a girl on a strict 2,000 cal diet!!

I'm really trying to keep my head up & pray for improvement. It's been a tough road getting sick now of all times, because I was almost done with my second round of treatment. So very close! I only have 2 vials left to take. Plus, being sick on top of having Lyme is a double whammy.

I had hoped to try driving soon & see if I could tolerate it, and was gearing up for a trip to see my doctor in Tennessee end of February. Everything was so perfectly set up, the plans to work on driving etc. But these 2 weeks have taken away from that. I'm also still in the middle of whatever this is (pain wise), so I won't be able to start trying to drive just yet. I literally lay in the fetal position with my heating pad 24/7 praying for relief! So that is just a bit of how things have been.

I don't want this to come off as a complaint, but more of why I have been very disconnected with updating this site. I haven't got to reply to many emails from you guys or give this the attention it deserves. Please just know I'm going though a hard time physically and emotionally & I hope to be back on here in full force sooner than later. Ill update as I improve!

Xoxo,
Christina
0 Comments

    Enter your email address to subscribe to new posts:


    Follow @ladyoflyme


    Follow Lady Of Lyme (@ladyoflyme)

    10.2k Followers, 618 Following, 51 Posts - Follow (@ladyoflyme)


    Categories

    All
    Crohn's
    Educational Posts & Info
    Gift Guides
    Giveaways & FREE Resources
    Health/Life Updates
    Interviews & Features
    Lyme Awareness
    Quiz & Polls
    Reflective Thoughts
    Things About Me

    RSS Feed

    Archives

    March 2022
    March 2021
    January 2021
    December 2020
    September 2020
    July 2020
    June 2020
    April 2020
    November 2019
    October 2019
    September 2019
    July 2019
    June 2019
    May 2019
    April 2019
    February 2019
    November 2018
    October 2018
    September 2018
    August 2018
    July 2018
    June 2018
    April 2018
    March 2018
    January 2018
    December 2017
    November 2017
    October 2017
    August 2017
    July 2017
    June 2017
    May 2017
    April 2017
    March 2017
    January 2017
    December 2016
    November 2016
    October 2016
    September 2016
    August 2016
    July 2016
    June 2016
    May 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    January 2016
    December 2015
    October 2015
    September 2015
    August 2015
    July 2015
    June 2015
    May 2015
    March 2015
    January 2015
    December 2014
    November 2014
    September 2014
    August 2014
    July 2014
    June 2014
    May 2014
    April 2014
    February 2014
    January 2014
    December 2013
    November 2013
    October 2013
    September 2013
    August 2013
    July 2013
    June 2013
    May 2013
    April 2013
    March 2013
    February 2013
    January 2013
    December 2012
    November 2012
    October 2012
    September 2012
    August 2012
    July 2012
    June 2012
    May 2012
    March 2012
    January 2012
    December 2011
    November 2011

© 2011 Lady of Lyme™. All Rights Reserved.

Terms and Conditions  - Privacy Policy
Connect with me:
Facebook
Twitter
Contact   About   Email Me


Lady of Lyme is a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising program designed to provide a means for sites to earn advertising fees by advertising and linking to amazon.com.