Every night when I lay down to sleep I say this prayer: "Lord, thank you for today. It was trying, but thank you for giving me a day to keep fighting. I pray that tomorrow is better, but mostly I just pray for another day. In Jesus name, Amen."
It's important to realize how grateful we should be that we woke up in the morning, even when we woke up with aches & pains. Some days I wake up after a terrible night & I feel so nauseous, my head is throbbing, and I don't want to face the day. I pout, I complain, and I forget to realize that I'm alive. How many people didn't get the chance that I did? It's so often taken in vain on those days when you feel crummy.
When I do wake up, and I'm sipping my morning tea, I say a second quick mantra:
I've seen better days,
But I've also seen worse
I don't have everything I want
But I do have everything I need
I woke up with aches and pains
But I woke up
My life may not be perfect
But I am blessed
Chronic illnesses can make you feel terrible, and they can mess with your mind to where you wish you didn't wake up. When the hopelessness takes over, I see many of my fellow Lyme fighters say things along those lines. And in the moment they believe it, because the pain feels unbareable, and facing another day is just too much. Mental health is a topic not often talked about openly in regards to tick-borne illnesses, however it needs to be talked about. This disease is known for its crippling depression & anxiety. Underneath the weight of that & the physical pain, it's easy for people to wish away their days. If you or someone you love is exhibiting signs of hopelessness & depression, please get help. For some it's just a funk they get in that they bounce back from, but for others it's more serious.
I just wanted to share my mantra in hopes that someone can start reciting it every day along with me. It's a daily reminder that no matter how gloomy the road gets, at least the option to fight on is there. No storm lasts forever, the sunshine always comes back. But you must, you must, keep going even on the hardest of days.
Xoxo,
Christina