Yesterday I got to do something I haven't done all year (since 2013 started)... I actually put on makeup, fixed my hair, and celebrated all the holidays I missed. I was too sick to get to celebrate my moms birthday, Easter, and my dads birthday. It's obviously tough when an illness rules your life, you can't always do things how you might like to. I felt guilty for missing my parents birthdays, and it was terrible sleeping through Easter Sunday curled up in a ball with a stomach ache. But I knew just because it was a hard 3 months didn't mean it would be permanent. Eventually the smoke would clear.
But, it felt so soooo nice to get to be normal for a short period of time. Even if it was just temporary, it made me feel human again. It wasn't easy to achieve being human though... it took all day to get ready. My energy is low so washing my hair, styling it, putting on makeup etc. all had to be done little by little, resting in between. It's no easy task getting ready for anything, but it's 100% worth it to look in the mirror and see myself looking back... Not the shell of a person I am most days. Boy can makeup work miracles! I swear I look like an unrecognizable version of myself with it on. Mind you this is the first time since Christmas that I bothered to put it on, so I almost forgot what I used to look like. But also nice to recognize the Christina that I used to see pre-Lyme treatment sucking the life out of me.
So long story short it took 5 hours to get ready to celebrate & then I got enjoy my family and have lots of laughs. And I could not be happier. I am however now utterly and completely dead. I'll be recuperating for the next 2 days (at least). But it will be the happiest recuperation ever. :)
Xoxo,
Christina
But, it felt so soooo nice to get to be normal for a short period of time. Even if it was just temporary, it made me feel human again. It wasn't easy to achieve being human though... it took all day to get ready. My energy is low so washing my hair, styling it, putting on makeup etc. all had to be done little by little, resting in between. It's no easy task getting ready for anything, but it's 100% worth it to look in the mirror and see myself looking back... Not the shell of a person I am most days. Boy can makeup work miracles! I swear I look like an unrecognizable version of myself with it on. Mind you this is the first time since Christmas that I bothered to put it on, so I almost forgot what I used to look like. But also nice to recognize the Christina that I used to see pre-Lyme treatment sucking the life out of me.
So long story short it took 5 hours to get ready to celebrate & then I got enjoy my family and have lots of laughs. And I could not be happier. I am however now utterly and completely dead. I'll be recuperating for the next 2 days (at least). But it will be the happiest recuperation ever. :)
Xoxo,
Christina
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