This disease can consume you if you let it. Key words: If you let it. I have really tough trying moments like now when I'm up at 2am with horrible stomach cramps in some of the worst pain. But these moments are the ones I hate talking about. I struggle between keeping this blog honest, and keeping it positive.
I don't like to dwell on the situation I'm in, or the bad moments. In fact I don't see myself as any different than who I was 2 years ago. I live my life as normal as possible for a secluded 24 year old with a chronic illness. I take my good moments & talk about them, capture them in photos etc. I want those to be my memories.
When you feel bad it's easy to get wrapped up in it. I have a lot of nervous energy when I go through tougher symptoms, but I channel it in 10 different places. I'll turn the tv on, have my laptop out, and be on my phone playing a game.. All at once. It's ADD at its finest, but one thing won't take my mind off how bad I feel. I need to channel it multiple places & keep my mind occupied.
And the one thing I can't stress enough is keeping the "distractions" POSITIVE. There are a few amazing Lyme support groups. There's also a few filled with depressing posts that will bring the calmest person to their knees in anxiety. I know these people just need an outlet to vent, but it's not a place for me. Always ask yourself if this distraction is doing anything good for you. That has helped me a great deal. I've also downloaded a few bible study apps on my phone I do at bedtime so I go to bed with a clear mind.
Balancing being normal & dealing with Lyme is no easy task, but so far I have avoided any major panic attacks worrying about it.
Xoxo,
Christina
I don't like to dwell on the situation I'm in, or the bad moments. In fact I don't see myself as any different than who I was 2 years ago. I live my life as normal as possible for a secluded 24 year old with a chronic illness. I take my good moments & talk about them, capture them in photos etc. I want those to be my memories.
When you feel bad it's easy to get wrapped up in it. I have a lot of nervous energy when I go through tougher symptoms, but I channel it in 10 different places. I'll turn the tv on, have my laptop out, and be on my phone playing a game.. All at once. It's ADD at its finest, but one thing won't take my mind off how bad I feel. I need to channel it multiple places & keep my mind occupied.
And the one thing I can't stress enough is keeping the "distractions" POSITIVE. There are a few amazing Lyme support groups. There's also a few filled with depressing posts that will bring the calmest person to their knees in anxiety. I know these people just need an outlet to vent, but it's not a place for me. Always ask yourself if this distraction is doing anything good for you. That has helped me a great deal. I've also downloaded a few bible study apps on my phone I do at bedtime so I go to bed with a clear mind.
Balancing being normal & dealing with Lyme is no easy task, but so far I have avoided any major panic attacks worrying about it.
Xoxo,
Christina
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