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3 Year Anniversary.... of diagnosis

9/29/2014

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As I sit here looking at my computer screen I have a lot of emotions all jumbled up in my head; gratitude, uncertainty, joy, disappointment, thankfulness. Today marks 3 years since my diagnosis. It strangely feels like it was just yesterday, because I can still feel all the range of thoughts that I went through. My immediate feeling was relief to have an answer after 5 years of searching through 100's of Doctors. My delayed reaction was fear and uncertainty as I started to question and investigate what exactly Lyme disease was. After that followed denial. I was in denial that this could possibly be my life, and that I would have to fight this battle that I read about on other peoples blogs. Lyme disease felt like it was bigger than me. Everyone said they had to quit school, give up their jobs, leave their friends, and I fought against all of that. I thought how unfair this disease was, and resented that I even got diagnosed. Many months passed with this mentality, and I was resistant to moving home. I didn't want to face the music. I didn't want to lose the people I loved the way I knew I would when this disease would make me bed bound. It just felt too surreal.

After fighting a long mental fight my body ultimately won when it gave up on me and I called my parents weeping and asking them to please come get me and take me home. This period began the feelings of exhaustion and feeling like a failure. I felt guilt, sadness and at times anger. Accepting this illness is a hard thing to do, and coming to terms with the new path for life was one that only happened for me because of my relationship with God. Once I began to understand that His plan for my life is the ultimate plan and that he is in control, things started to shift. I began to see the glass half full. I realized how lucky I was to be diagnosed and to have a Doctor who is so incredibly knowledgeable. I realized that each day I fought I was moving closer to healing, and that I just needed patience (something I was not used to). I realized that people exit our lives for a reason, and that once they served their purpose they phase out, and all we can do is look back fondly on what they taught us. I realized that although it was hard to give up my independence and move home with my parents I am so utterly grateful for this time I got to spend with them. Being a teenager I took that for granted, and as adults we don't really get to spend much time with our family because of work and life being chaotic. Being in my mid-twenties and spending these years with my parents is something I will be able to cherish forever (as corny as that sounds).

These 3 years since I was diagnosed I went on a journey both physically and mentally. I matured a lot in my understanding of the world, and I don't think that would have happened if I was living my life the way I was. I am a people-pleaser and I lived by catering to other people's needs. Forcing me to move home with an illness out of my control made me stop and focus on myself. It taught me patience, it taught me to take care of my own needs, and it brought me so much closer to God. There is no way that anyone is the same person after they fight a chronic illness, because it does change you. I believe it changes people for the better, because I found a strength in myself that I did not know existed. I always saw myself as someone who was weak, and this showed me that I am so much stronger than I ever imagined. And when you realize your own inner strength it takes away a lot of the fears in the world. You look at the world and think, "there is nothing I can't handle after this." And that's exactly how I feel as I sit here today. Nothing can scare or deter me from chasing after what I want. I refuse to see these 3 years as something to be sad about because of how hard it's been. It's all in the eye of the beholder, and how you view your battle is something that can make or break you.

So I am choosing to celebrate this milestone. Often times when you are sick you feel like until you are well and healed that you don't have anything to celebrate. And that is simply not true. Getting a diagnosis is incredibly tough, so if you have one then you already won the biggest prize of them all, because it means you can get your life back. With a diagnosis in your hands you can alter your life and have symptom relief to look forward to. How amazing is that? Yes, this journey is hard. Yes, this journey is long. No this journey is certainly not easy. But now I can fight for my life because I know what I am fighting against. And that is a blessing that deserves endless amounts of celebration.

Here's to 3 years, and I will fight for as many more as it takes. This disease might try to take my body, but it can not take my soul and will to reclaim the life that it stole.

xoxo,
Christina

9 Comments
Donna Falcone link
9/29/2014 06:47:04 am

Yes, it is quite a milestone and I will celebrate with you, my dear. What a beautiful piece you've written here... I relate to so much of it. You inspire many, and by the way your shirt design is wonderful - I'm wearing mine now, and a friend wants a hoodie.

Cheers to you, and sending you lots of good thoughts... and a big three year hug. xo

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Christina
9/29/2014 07:15:54 am

Aww Donna, thank you so much for always being such a huge support! You have been there since the very beginning for me & I'm so thankful for your friendship :)

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Melissa link
10/11/2014 05:46:00 am

Christina,
I have recently been diagnosed with Lyme and Bartonella, and I was thrilled to find your blog. Thank you for providing me with just what I needed! You inspired me to write a blog post today, and I wanted to share it with you. I am also interested in donating my artwork if you ever are in need of donations.
Here is my blog post: http://melissamaryjenkins.wordpress.com/2014/10/11/my-life/
As it is Canadian Thanksgiving weekend, I wanted to let you know that I am so thankful for your words and inspiration.

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Christina
10/15/2014 08:10:12 am


Oh goodness, thank you so much for your kind words. That really means a lot! I loved your post, I really encourage you to keep writing because you have a talent for putting feelings into words :)

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melissa
10/15/2014 01:05:07 pm

😊

Brian link
10/27/2014 03:31:32 am

Congrats on three years! I'm at two months since Lyme diagnosis and it seems like 2 years :) I wish you good health and healing in the days and months to come.

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Christina
10/27/2014 08:32:29 am

Thank you brian! Soon your days will fly by too & you will look back and just see how far you have come. Wishing you a good journey & the ability to reclaim your health very soon!

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Tim
10/29/2014 05:51:25 am

Christina,
You are such a wonderful young lady and a great inspiration. I've found some good information on your website and am truly grateful to you. God bless you on your journey to good health! :)

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Pete
10/21/2016 11:17:57 am

My wife was diagnosed in 2008 with it and no DR did anything to solve the problem. Until June 8, 2016 and her death due to it she suffered like you have been and was diagnosed with ALS in 2014. I believe the symptoms were there all along of lymes and because DR's did't look at it that way the nervous system was compromised thus making the auto immune disease, that can't be treated, to eventually win its battle.
What started the whole process, Lymes disease/bacteria untreated.
96% of all ALS patients are tested positive to have had lymes at some point in their quest to stay alive. The number 2 cause of death in the US is "Hospitals". So these are hints.
I am so happy to hear that you are winning this fight and when Doug Buckley reads this write up he will say the loop has been closed.
Good luck and may God grant you the ability to stay longer and do his work.
Most sincerely,

Pete Phillips

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