I was bummed when it happened, but I took a look back and realized how much better as a whole I am feeling now than I was when I moved home in January. The first couple of months at home were some of the toughest months of my life. I wasn't as courageous to blog every dirty detail at the time, but I absolutely remember everything. If I had a good day or a good moment once every 2 weeks it was an absolute blessing. I ate almost every meal in bed because the energy it took to get downstairs would just take away my appetite and put me in more pain. I couldn't take showers without herxing so badly I was out of commission for 24 hours so my mother had to wash my hair in a tub, and my organs were hurting so badly I was getting blood drawn at all hours of the day/night to figure out what was happening. Standing up or walking for more than a few minutes at a time left me breathless. Days, weeks, months passed and I felt like they were going by in an instant because my life was my bed and my will for energy was on 0.
I'm really not sure when it was that I started to feel a change, because it wasn't until I sat down now and looked back that I realized what I have overcome. There are far more good days than bad days, and more good moments than bad moments. I can take long showers without any problems (HUGE accomplishment), I can spend most of my day up walking around, helping in the kitchen, being active, and I don't feel as bad afterwards as I used to. My energy level has improved, and my ability to sleep at night has improved as well.
Now don't get me wrong, I am nowhere near healthy or perfect, but seeing ANY development into the good is a blessing from God. I have NOT treated my Lyme disease itself, however I have been doing things to take off the burden in other areas which in turn help my body fight what it can on its own. When I was diagnosed I found out I had Lyme, Protomyxzoa (a parasite which came from the tick as well), and systematic Candida. Not to mention I was extremely toxic from all of this and had a body that was very burdened. Moving home I started with treatment quickly and only added to the heavy load on my body. I soon learned that was not possible and things needed to change. I couldn't be in such a rush to get better if my body wasn't ready.
I began intense detoxification every single day. This was a huge contributor to assisting me to feel better because the symptoms caused by the diseases is directly from the toxins released by the bacteria. Secondly, my strict diet was also a big part as I removed all inflammatory foods and sugars/yeast which feed infections in the body. Thirdly, and I feel most importantly, I began my weekly massages. Once I started seeing my massage therapist it felt like she breathed new life into me. Not only is she the kindest woman who gives my heart and soul the nurturing and motivation I was missing, but her healing hands helped me detoxify and ease my pain almost instantly. This has been the most profound change of all. After I get my massage, that day and the next few days I have such an appetite and hunger I basically eat non stop. I honestly don't know what it does to my body but it absolutely LOVES it. It has boosted my energy, my appetite, my overall well being. I will be forever grateful that she came into my life. Lastly, I really upped the probiotics, which is vital to my body that was missing the good bacteria in my gut. As the burden has lifted slowly from my Systematic Candida improving it reflects in other parts of my body. My immune system has that much LESS holding it back and it can on its own kill and clear other bacteria/parasites. So although it is not being treated with medicine directly I can feel that all the small stuff I have been doing have added up to a larger reward.
My biggest issue still which I haven't seen any improvement with though is my neurological issues. I am still very visually sensitive and find certain TV shows/movies and games to be a lot to handle. When I herx it's quite frequently a neurological herx & those are especially tough to tolerate. It's really hard to put into words what I feel but the simplest way to describe it is when you want into a club with strobe lights on and you feel like you are just overwhelmed and want it to stop. I feel like the world around me is a strobe light, except nothing can make it stop. Not to mention the brain fog I get I can barely form sentences or remember what was said to me two seconds ago. But these are things that are happening very specifically from the disease being buried deep into the tissue of my brain and that will only improve once I get treatment officially under way. That day can't possibly come soon enough!
Whew, this was a long one but I had a lot to say! I pray everyone has a great weekend out in this heat and stays safe! I will be tucked away indoors avoiding that at all costs!